I started to write somthing but basicly everything came down to that I was super happy in life and where its at. I mean granted I could be richer and/or I could have super powers or take over the world but “hey!” We cant all have what we want :p :p
I’m laying down next to my lovely lady, which happens to be the warmest nicest greatest person I have met in a long time. Our relationship is the best thing I’ve had or seen :) she’s currently playing skyrim haha.
“I used to play skyrim, but then I took an arrow in the…..”
Haha i remade my last pureish mage/magic user which has been fun to plaaay
I sorta kinda basicly broke my left4dead2 game cd the otherday which basicly means I got a large circular ring scratch in it making the dvd unplayable sooooooo I went to “gamestop” and bought both one and two used. Wooooo lol.
But all in all like I said earlier, lifes great and I love those in it. Xoxo
So im writing this as i lay down, im not completely tired, but i also wanna wake up in about 5hours too, so i figure why not try to lay down and think and maybe after a bit i’ll get sleepy enough to turn to a side and sleep for alittle. to add to this alittle i realized i havnt wrote anything on this in a very long time so why not go out gunz’a’blazin’ and hit 2 birds with one’ish stone haahah. This might not make me completely tired tho… But atleast its better than sitting up either watching a movie or playing ‘neverwinter nights’ or somthing hahah :p
Ha i really want a cig while typing this on my phone but im in one of those self reflection kinda deals, and realized ive been smoking for like 7years haha.. Not the longest time ever but not insignificant either, so i’ll try and let the relaxing and cool defining taste of camel menthol sit this one out :p . So yah hmmm… Whats new since the last time i wrote in this, well im moving for one, down closer to the capital, i’ll be getting a new job that means, which is both good and bad, more good than bad, but im not gonna lie, working kinda blows hahaha. What else whate else.. Im brushing up on french, but being alittle lax about it, but still working at it, id like to move to a french speaking country one of these days i think, not sure if its just one of those whimzzzz or not but i do feel like i kinda wanna change. But who knows :p i’ll still work on my french regardless. Havnt listened to too much new music tho i have been listening to alot more drumandbass/gabber/hardstyle and subgenre’s like darkstep, also alot of idm/glitch/glitchhop and the works, mostly when i play videogames tho, kinda gives a different feel to what im playing in a way, not sure how to describe it but its ‘not’ like just listening to black flag while playing halo haha, i shrug’
*stretches*
I think im getting alittle more tired than i was prior so this may be working hahah. Ive been kinda on and off been depressed, but not like heavy depressed, just kinda lost.. Not sure how to put into words or really what the stem of it is tbh, but its there, maybe moving might help with me then having to get out more and actually interacting with more and more people haha.
Ive pretty much decided to go back to school now, but i believe imma actually major in auto mechanics and just minor in computer science, for a few reasons really. Couple of those reasons being that i like working on cars too, i dont really want a desk job- id get way too bored, id rather being up and doing somthing, also im not givng up on computers i love working on them, i think i always will, it just seems that most computer based jobs are so stuffy and uppity, id rather be just a part time small biz computer tech and sell/build comps on the side, which by all means i can do with this route im taking. And cars i love working on them too, i mean i have less experience in them, compared, but after replacing my lil bro’s gf’s back breaks with him a while back i realized i really wouldnt mind doing this as a job lol, maybe kinda lame but im pretty set on it still, also tho its barely a factor but, im not the most clean cut mother fucker alive lol, i even hate applying for shit jobs because i know everyone judges but i am who i am, and at the end of the day im happy, and i feel the whole stuffyness of the computer world is alittle against me, weither that is true or not. We’ll see where life takes me haha :p what else what else…
Im single now, kinda strange, i say strange cus im not really out there looking, not even sure really what to look for hahah, kinda feel blah with the girlies, i guess i more just dont want a relationship again for a while, but iunno lol, would be nice to have someone that mutually cared for me the way i do them for a change lol, but i wont hold my breath for long :p welp on this depressing note i think imma try and sleep, im going to have to edit this post later cus its gonna be one large wall of txt ready to make any eye bleed that reads it hahaha, oh lol i created a twitter hahahaha, after a long time of making fun of it, i was like what the hell why not, BAM- and then it was born haha, i might post it on here, i dunno, but yah all in all thats most atleast of whats new in the life of meh. Till next time :)
Well hello thereeee, its been a while since i have typed on this thingie, im typing this from mah phone, im outside halping my lil brother fix/mess with his 240sx, he’s replacing the back breaks and probably has to replace somthing with ignition/coil but i dunno how to do the latter :p but atm we are taking a break and im shmokin a cig :p i dont have much to say atm tho lol but ive been playing ‘league of legends’ a decent amount lately, i rebeat the first ‘deus ex’ and halflife 2 ep1 and ummmmmm i played ‘rainbow six 3:raven shield’ and playing halflife 1 but i havnt finished it yet but will one of these days, still no jorb but once we move it should be better cus i could take the bus lol, welp off to back halpinnn, toodles
fuck everything LOL, so i was laying down and i had all this shit typed out on my phone which is no easy task and some how i fucking deleted it before i sent it D; D: D: D: D: D:
i will attempt to type most of everything i was saying prior, in this, difference this time being im at my computer lol, and more grumpy than before
so yah i havnt typed anything in a while, been kinda busy with my computer, and havnt really had anything to type about in a way, its been same old same old, minus fixing/tweaking my computer which i ended up getting Debian running flawlessly, in basicly every aspect. running Openbox as my windows manager, i think i was at 80megs of ram on idle. it was pimp and i loved/love it. BUT BUT BUT BUTB UT BUTBUTBUTBUTBUTBUT
i wanted to play video games lol, i was getting alittle bored of playing quake, only slightly, like its fun when i have weed. but thats the prob i dont have weed atm lol, and havnt for a while :( minus the occasional chance. so after pwning nubs in quakelive or Openarena i dont remember which i was playing i decided to grab one of my even shittier comptuers and throw windows on it and hope for the best. THO I FUCKING HATE WINDOWS WITH A MOTHER FUCKING PASSION. i put my ego and pride aside and installed Windows lol. it was ok, the comptuer was shit and slow, so i had to strip windows down to even beyond bare bones, had to go the extra length of closing explorer.exe to give me the extra ram mb’s lol. but games ran, slow and choppy on low settings , but it was still a step.
this went on for a week or so i think, i have a horrible memory tho :< but yah i was like… hmmm this kinda blows. granted i was able to play Allod persay but it was barely playable let alone enjoyable, and without weed it was like skating on a thin sheet of ice. so i figured i had a slightly newer shit computer i wasnt using but it was a dell, and not even that it has a intergrated video card, so shit on top of shit = a whole lotta shit. but i still put the effort, i installed windows, it was alittle snappier even than the other shit computer, and i was pleased but then came my bad news bear. i downloaded and installed and updated all my games assuming it would be fairly ok, i was terribly wrong :| they didnt wanna run on my intergrated vid card, and the driver support was of course horrible aswell :| so after all that time wasted installing and updating the comp was worthless to me lol,
sec cig lighting
kk
i dont even fucking have coke for a nice mixture of a cig and coke but i has lemonade, as you can tell im slightly negative atm
back to my story. so yah the computer was a peice of shit, and worthless but i figured it wasnt a 100% loss cause and tried to salvage it by looking for non-existing new drivers or somthing to get it to maybe work but meanwhile i was like… hmmm… WHY NOT, and so i then at that very moment decided to try and install windows on my main computer for the 8th millionth time, tho i hate windows :| my want for a MMO was eating me alive.
so after browsing a bunch of forums i stumble upon a post about my old k8v mobo and how it has 2 diff plugins for harddrives which i knew but i never switched them so didnt think much of it before, but reading that made me wonder…. what if
AND LOL SURE AS FUCK TO MY SURPRISE IT WORKS LOL
after all this time my old k8v mobo wouldnt read my harddrives under windows and now BAM it does lololol, i felt alittle silly but w.e it worked lol, which i dont udnerstand cus i get a bios/driver error about it on boot up but it works fine so i dont care atm. but sad part of this story is i had to delete my linux partitions cus it took up my entire harddrive(/root /home /swap) :< and didnt feel like backing up anything, but i left a partition for me to reinstall debian just havnt yet
but now i get to play all the stupid free mmo’s all i want lol, which is a nice change :) but in a few days imma go back and conquer the Debian beast on the other partition just been lazy and gaming for the past few days. i downloaded and played all mmo’s known to man(lol alittle exaggeration but you get the point). i mostly play Allod now but i kept Runes of Magic, Iris online, and DDO on my comp but dont play them as much and uninstalled the rest
END OF MY NERD RANT.
other than that life is blah, its really hot out, weedless/boozeless, not that you wanna hear me complain all that much but iunno im exceptionally grumpy today lol hahaha, was supposed to reup for my pops meaning i get alittle outta of it maybe, and i told the dude 2 days ago, but he doesnt start looking till 9pm… today, talk about wow… so obviously that didnt work out, but either way its not the end of the world, just grumpelz
well for now i think thats it
i need to sleep and wake up earlyish
Good night cold(extremely warm atm) world
I havnt posted in a while, not sure why, i meant to a few times, had my phone in hand ready to txt out an entire story but i chose sleep in the end everytime :P ahaha
i smoked my last bowl not long ago, prob still “high” so to speak but not that super buzzed woo sup im high feeling. i do however have a few cigs to last me, which is a godsend cus then it would just be horrible to be without weed and cigs, its happened many’a’times lately too :( i dont enjoy it hahaah
Listening to Deltron 3030 atm, Del the funk one of the few west rapper/hiphopist/mc’s that i really enjoy. not completely shitting on the west, cus the east has horrible shit too, but i really loved the 90’s uper-east scene and in a way wished it was the same, and hold onto such a thought hahaha. tho probably never happy. but still a few arists out there doing their thing
im writing this large wall of txt up, in a word pad, its all about linux and figured it would be best not to post here, and probably start another blog to just post that and leave it, mostly just things/fixes/links/MY OPINIONS/points of intrest in mainly debian, not that my opinion is amazing, it is mostly written for me to keep a note cus i have a horrible memory and i learn better when im actually forced to do it and explain it ^____^ and i figure it might halp someone maybe atleast once or twice or point them in the right direction. i guess thats a bigger part of why i havnt really posted anythign aswell, cus im not a huge fan of just sitting here and typing hahaa :P so it comes in bursts, and not automatic :( lololol i might post it once it gets larger in content, we shall see : ))
~sec getting alittle more cola~
mmmm coke :3
haha so i’ve been working out more lately, like past couple weeks, more like intermissions of workouts :P like while im waiting for somthing to finish or before shower and sleep or if im just getting not so comfy sitting in this wonderful chair, i get up and work some free weights or push ups or sitt ups hahaa, norm like 10-20min sessions haha, maybe its really weird to do this :P /shrug but im feeling soreish most days, so its doing somthing lolol, also work out my back alot cus i slouch and i have hopes that it will halp and my back wont look crazy when im 80 hahahaaaa
ooooh :3 i love this song Deltron 3030 - Mastermind, i’ll prob upload the song now just to expose the amazingness to the masses /giggles
this song is badass enough to smoke one of my last cigs to :)
ahhh… cola and a cig, nothing better :3 minus beer and weed maybe ? >:P
my nostril ring occasionally gets one of those little bumps and its quite annoying :((( i find neosporin halps but its more so when i wear a ring or horseshoe and its 14g too i think they develop with alot of irritation and i toss and turn when i sleep alot hahaha so i might lay on it somtimes or somthing strange like that
but yah within those 2 weeks i got rid of the fedora15 partition and now just running debian sid instead of both well before i was fedora and debian stable ~ heheh, but yah its been badass, i got doom3 installed natively and beat it again, its wasnt as scary as i remember it tho but made me jump a few times, now im looking for a new game to play aahaha, im trying to install a free mmo’ atm rofl EtherSagaOdyssey on wine haha, i figured id grind while filling out some stupid surveys for subpar money for some whiskey/cig cash hahaha.
ugh now the want for weed is coming over me, ahaha i gotta not think about it :||| haha but yah, dunno, mostly everything is the same i still like the same music, life is pretty much in the same place, i still work on computers and like to blow up mine. id like to have alittle more money tho :(
which actually i was thinking about, not that im hugely innovative or anything like that but if i was to invent or come up with an idea would i be able to just hand that up for free, i love the idea of opensource and i believe it should be a bigger part of the average users daily platter of a computer, but its not haha but even still, i can see why, gotta pay the bills :| but there are many factors, but it would deff be in an aspect hard to just give up somthing that could make money up for free, i guess if i was hurting that bad, id sell my product and still produce atleast a free minimal lovechild that could be distributed , cus it would mean more to me that people use it and it halps out something /shrugs but maybe that wouldnt be possible. who knowsss :(
well imma go eat or sleep i thinks while this game still patches rofl, its been verifying and patching for like 3hours already, and its not frozen, its actually running >.<
well toodles all :)
i could use a pack of cigs and a 12 pack, hahaha and maybe 1/4th but id be happy with even a shitty little 1/8th :P
sup pimps
Havnt really slept yet, haahahaha
im smoking a rollie of pipe tobacco, pretending that its ok, but it still doesnt compare to a menthol, im drinking a few day old spiked lemonade, but it was contained in the fridge and tastes ok, so i dont think i’ll die but also on the flip side its not enough to get me drunk either. i happily sip it :) hhahaha
so yah, PERFECT WORLD, wasntt so fucking perfect D: i got it to install fine blahblah and after a few tweaks i finally get it running but its choppy and alittle slow but i was able to sign in. BUT THEN IT HAPPENED. i messed with wine, making sure its updated and etc, and then suddenly the game wouldnt boot :O and then i reinstalled WINE and some how that broke it cus then winetricks wouldnt even run, it was a mess, but i shouldnt have messed with wine so much :| hahahaahha
BUT SO im typing from my new setup WOO LOL, 3 in like 3-4days ? but now Fedora15xfce and Debian 6(justopenbox) both 64bit and im liking it. i wanted to see if fedora would play Assaultcube outta the box so to speak and it didnt :| but i’ll mess with it. basicly i wanna keep my 2nd linux partition with somthing i will actually mess with and use so i think Fedora might be a nice change, i havnt used fedora since 7 ! ;o hahaha
/puts out rollie for a few mins
so i think im all outta resin now too, been long past due on that, i could try one more shitty ash/resin hit rofl
~
i actually got 2 shitty hits hahaha :P
better than nothing, and today/tomorrow i hope wont be too bad, its been like 2 days since i had a cig and after i sleep it will be like a “DAY” if you dont consider the shitty resin hits rofl, but they can be easily counted. but atleast i wont be raging as hard for both weed and cigs, and i still have this pipe tobaccy haha, and its nothing short of amazing /giggles :P
im bumpin my head to some chill IDM atm, /groves
i realized i havnt really eaten either :o but i slept in like crazy the day before so in reality this is kinda like still my day, but more so the nearing end ! hahaahah even tho its getting brighter by the minute.
manman o man, id like to make money online some how, i just havnt found my little niche. dunno if i ever will, but it would be cool :P hahaha
i was listening to last.fm’s Hiphop tag station and Beyoncé(with the stupid little accent mark) popped on for a min and i gave my phone the shifty eye :|
i really havnt taken any new panda pictures, and its kinda sad in a way, i wanted a panda pic of my own for every post, but i feel unartistic in terms of pictures lately. well not even lately more so for a lil while now :O i dont even take trendy facebookpics anymore, not that i have taken many but one set of pics is there~ hahaahahaah
/lights rollie again
the otherday, or maybe it was just earlier, lol, i was thinking about what kind of image i portray in this blog, and i have no clue lol, but its kinda nice, i can ramble on without TOOOOOOO~ much feeling of like restriction, not that there is really any restriction in my life but, like i can ramble about even somthing that might offend someone i know, not that i have or would , and in a sense it wouldnt matter. horrible example maybe :|
my rollie is like half done, but in a way its alittle more than that cus i cant smoke it down to the end :( OH THE SADNESS hahahahahaha
so the otherday this little fucking beetle thing was on my arm while i was out eating at a bbq, i flick it off and then where it was there is a little blood mark :O and then it kept piddling blood here and there :| and then it puffed up the day after. /raises fist, that fucking bug :||||||||
oh and come to find out more about the whole internet radio bullshit, if i lose last fm its gonna blow D: ahahaa cus pandora still doesnt work and slacker was taken away for w/e reason for nokia’s. grrr :| hahaa well i’ll take it as it goes
i prob should head to either bed or somthing constructive for alittle bit and then bed hahahaah :P
toodles my brothers and sisters :)
Typing with my phone again only cus its probably easiser and im leaning back while my computer does its thing. Im out of weed and cigs. Its horrble lol, tho i should get better at dealing with it i suppose. Haha i feel like im whiny about it sometimes, tho in other ways it might be a legit whine, tho i do kinda put this on myself in ways heheh, or hell maybe i deal with it just fine :p I mention im typing on my phone because imma have to sign in on my comp or maybe my phone can via its browser but when i send this to be posted it will be one large-giant wall of text ready to destroy the average humans eyes.
im listening to last.fms radio tho the assholes double charged me for 2months and i shoulda did somthing about it last month but i just did it, ahaha, but yah ive been a member since like 07 and its not that i hate them for this its just if i cant get even a month back imma have to stop the subscription. Which again is really no big deal but i do use it as my phone radio, which would kinda suck to not have when im working on a comp and have nothing else to play music. So ive been checking into others like pandora and slacker, we’ll see tho~
Did i mention that im also outta cola, gosh life is ruined ahahah jp. But it does kinda blow having to be healthyish and poor sometimes. And we have to buy spring water cus we cant drink our tap so its not even cheap being poor hahah. I do tend to drink a bit more lemonade tho cus im not a huge water fan, isnt that strange?
So my attempt to conqure the worlds fps market is going ok, ive gotten better imo noticably but not 100%, and its more cus i didnt suck horribly before just i cant say im amazing at it? If that makes sense. Its more so my aim could get better, at times im on fire but at times tho i fumble and miss an easy shot that i knew i coulda had.
But id like to play warsow more or like nexuzi or somthing but warsow doesnt have of peeps on, atleast when i wanna play hahha and nexuzi kinda makes my computer hurt alittle but i reinstalled debian6 but amd64 this time cus i forgot this old shit computer has a 64proc and i was like what the heck getting rid of deb6 32bit(crunchbang) and linuxmint deb, which wasnt bad but and i had xfce on it, it was buggie and iunno i wasnt using it much so imma wait and try it again later, i love the idea tho heheh, so this time i think tho imma keep deb 6 64 and try fedore15 64 i think i saw a xfce iso but if not ill just install openbox which i like more anyways, if i can that is, which im sure i can. And if you havnt noticed i love lightweight desktops haha, lxde feels alittle too bland vs others, and openbox alone with no desktop manager is prob my fav, i even right click outta habit on other systems now hahaha. xfce is similar but alittle easier based like less configuring verse openbox, but its a pretty solid, and (minus small bugs) hardly breaks for me, aswell as prob my second fav, also seeing alot of it being included in install disks as is lxde. Fluxbox i havnt really messed with as much but reminds me of openbox and tint2 hahaha which is prob lighter than flux but im sure its goodshit, i will have to try a distro with flux. all the others are kinda blah for me like id rather just have gnome than icewm haha but maybe thats alittle unfair to say, but i have seen some nice icewm dekstops, i wont lie.
But yah my game ‘perfect world’ its some mmo just finished installing and stuff so imma get my self some lemonade and scrape my bong one more time and hope that because WINE installed it, it should also play too ! Hahaha and wineHQ says its playableish soooooo wish me luck !
Till next time :p and iunno if imma format this rightaway(iactuallydid”heheh”)
*EDIT* little edit after the fact, lastfm refunded my money :D WOO THEM <3
so yah im laying not 100% tired but oh well, i the other day attempted this aswell, the whole typing from my phone but i typed it from the internet browser of my phone and it froze when sending so i basicly lost it all and i QQ’d for quite some time after that, and my shitty app stumblr doesnt work :c Sooooooooooooooo, im trying emailing it rofl /crosses fingers
I got my computer to dual boot finally without linuxmint debian edition completely hating everything, and its cool linuxmint deb is a rolling distro so it is alway updating and not a numbered version its pretty fast and nifty i installed the XFCE and tho i like open box alot more for simpler reasons i dont mind this xfce and atleast for me it seems not as buggy on this distro, but yah linuxmint is pretty much labeled one of the easy distros hahah, just like the bogged down ubuntu. But i wanted to give the new debian varient a try and its cool just alittle buggy hahah but its still heavly being tested
Been playing alot of fps’s alot, trying to get my skillzzzzz more strapped down haha mostly playing openarena and umm assaultcube and i wanted to play warsow but whenever i downloaded it no servers popped up and i thought it was dead, then a little light flicked on and i realized my repository might not be up to date as far as warsow goes and i was correct hehheheh
Minus games and the norm linux, i have been trying to get windows back on a partiition, not that i really want to but all the decent free mmo’s are windows only with horrible linux support. But fucking windows wont install hahah wont read i have harddrives. ive slippedstreamed a few cd’s aka burnt my own copys of windows with my said missing driver but then it just crashes hahah i cant win :c i might try another harddrive tho. But yah i prob should goto bed. Soooooo nightnight :)
“With your feet in the air and your head on the ground
Try this trick and spin it, yeah
Your head will collapse
But there’s nothing in it
And you’ll ask yourself”
Weed really should be free, i personally think that would be amazing, dunno about you but im sure you wouldnt mind :D /giggles
man, im outta cigs and its semi a good thing, and i still have no real monenny, which i need to work on that situation, cus a nigga gotta smoke and drank :( but for now i have alittle weed and i have a few bustdown snubs of a cig left for when i get really RAWR.
been fiddling with my phone for a while, trying to get a decent tumblr app
im convinced if i get this magically app working id post alot more, lol
like a Twitter/Facebook on crack
“im currently standing right now, makign ramen *chuckles to self*
but yah i didnt make ramen but it does sound good, i havnt really slept again but i probably later, shitty scheduled im in atm, but lifes~ life hahahaa
a cig would be amazing now, not a little baby shit one, but a real full Cig, but alas i just complained or rather explained my situation above. /sighs
have been watching alot of movies lately, good and bad, and a few funnie ones, mostly all amusing tho out of the bad ones , The Mechanic, that new jason S movie was kinda weak and lame and could have been MUCH better :|
brb lemonade.
~
ah that hits the spot, tho a cig would be better served with this awesomeness, i guess i could roll a rollie of pipe tobacco, but that would be fairly hxc. we’ll see how badly i want one in a little :O hahahahaha
im just zoning now ;o Pixies chanting in the background, i was fairly high earlier pretty much faded you’d say, passing out on chair hahahahaah i thought i was gonna goto bed then suddenly an urge to find a tumblr app again caim to mind and BAM it begun. i mean i still really didnt find one that does it all but, i can post pics and movies and shit through it incase i ever would i suppose, but i dont think i would and i guess i could always post through the web via my phone but we’ll see how much i do that LOL, as even now im typing this on compy
shitty thing is i think there is a crack on the downstem of my bong or around that area maybe where it meets the bong with the little rubber washer like deal, but its pulling alot of air in lately, like more than needed :( or maybe my lungs are just getting worse but i dont think it would be that HUGE of a diff that fast, but you never know :o
im kinda ranting alot on this badboy atm :O woowoowooo
alright maybe a rollie of pipe
uno momento~
oh im back :3
lol so i decided with smoking this super gangsterness full of tobacco
i will listen my last song of Pixies and then change it. as i am listening to Surfer Rosa, the song will be of course “Where is my mind” yet again :3 looool tho they are all pretty much all good, with one or 2 stupid intro’s
:)
but yah musics good shit, i enjoy it ;o one of the few things i can enjoy in a large ammount of excess and not get completely bored after alittle. in fact its more like it blows to not have it, tho i will say sometimes it is hard to SLEEP with music, but its all mind set, where as if im not sleepy at all and i have alot on my mind music will just keep me up because i will sing the song in my head almost, not even intentionally, but maybe im just crazy /shrugs
still running debian 6, and still loving it, no real complaints minus i want a new computer hahahahaha :P i also need a new job tho
song makes me wanna watch Fightclub for a lame obvious reason but if i hadnt watched it not long ago i might have just done that
smoked some hash earlier and it was good shit, wish i had more :O hahaah
Well im off to eat or sleep :P
lateslates
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